Day 4: Bad Habit

The habit I wish I didn't have would have to be putting myself down about my weight.  I have always struggled with my weight.  Don't get me wrong I have never been really over-weight or obese, but I have struggled with what I think is acceptable and with what "looks good".  I think the world has this perception of what healthy is, good looking is, etc.  I struggle every day as I get ready in the morning.
 "What am I going to wear today?  None of my pants fit me and when I wear these shirts my belly sticks out."

"It's too hot outside so I can't wear a cardigan to cover up."

"And my capris look way too tight around my thighs and you can see my pooch."

UGHH!!!!!!

Seriously, though.  These are the thoughts running through my head as I get dressed

EVERY. SINGLE. DAY.

I seriously loathe this morning ritual.

I actually am beyond excited that leggings have come back into style...because honestly, it's the only thing I want to wear.  Well, those and my pj's.

A few times I did have a gym membership and had started going...I loved it.

Then I had to go back to work.  No time now.  Then we got rid of the memberships cuz we couldn't afford them.  And now....well now, now I don't have the time or the money and I just really need a good kick in the butt by Ms. Jillian Micheal's!!

 Someone force me to exercise and stop this horrid habit!

Or maybe I should just stop talking down to myself and love every inch of me.

One day.